i hate shopping for clothes nowadays. i still haven’t found shops that i could buy from these days. why? promod’s sizing is now weird. i used to find their clothes ok. especially the basic tops. their big sizes are now smaller @_@ well, it depends. some are still like the old promod tops i have. anyway, yeah, so the trouble with shopping for plus size clothes in manila is that it’s hard to find something affordable and nice. i have been to forever 21 time and again but nothing struck me as something that to buy right away except for 1 dress that i wasn’t able to buy because i fitted it while waiting for my boyfriend to arrive in our designated meeting area.

so now my problem is formal wear. i have clothes that i have been wearing to weddings. i like the victorian inspired clothes, especially lolita inspired outfits because i somehow manage to look ok in them. and it feels comfortable to wear them. more often than not, those outfits have worked in the weddings i’ve attended.

however, i am invited to a wedding and it’s required to wear something formal. according to the boyfriend, cocktail dresses aren’t allowed. ~_~ wtf. and i have 2 weeks only.

argh. i have been looking for dress styles for the last couple of hours. it’s driving me nuts. something floor-length is something i’ve never worn since the 90s. i think everything i wore to the proms and grad ball were knee-length only.

i hate looking older especially because my boyfriend is two years younger than i am. unfortunately, i am clueless as to which kind of formal dress suits me best. all i know is that i don’t have a defined waist, i am booby, i have a naturally high waistline and that i am quite short. i usually look better in two piece outfits. i tried wearing my sister’s infinity dress but failed even with her assistance in coming up with a look that would be fine.

so yeah, i just really feel like skipping this wedding because it’s so complicated to be a guest on short notice. and rush shopping tends to be more expensive. i’d rather give them a nice gift or more GCs (since that’s what they requested in the bridal registry) than to spend money on preparing to attend their wedding. seriously. if it’s going to end up being so expensive to dress up for the occasion, i’d rather treat them to dinner or something after their big day, give them the gift and have some nice conversation in the process.

some people might think i am missing the point of the wedding day. that may be true. but it’s not like i am very close to these people that i am really going to be disappointed to not be there and it’s not like we will get to talk on the day itself. however, this wedding is important. especially to my boyfriend who is close to the groom. but seriously i’d rather get to know them more over dinner or something and know more about their plans as a couple over a nice conversation.

i guess i am just weird. and i do want to avoid formal events like this. it drives me nuts.

and i hate the question: so when would your wedding be?

not that i hate the thought of getting married. it’s more like i hate having to think about all the details that are involved in weddings. i am more concerned about having to pay for a house and possibly a car. and how to save up for future children. i think those are more important than finding a good venue to reserve etc.

anyway, i was ranting about shopping for formal clothes. so yeah. i just hope that any of my friend’s clothes would fit me. i want to really to not have spend so much on clothes. and a stylist. and other stuff. argh. ugh. it’s because i don’t always attend formal events. if i buy clothes for this one event, when in the world will i wear the clothes again?! it feels so wasteful. because i dunno if i could wear those clothes again. i still gain weight so there’s a chance that i might not be able to wear it again after some time. isn’t that sad?! so much money on clothes that you wear only once? terrible.

so yeah, i have to sleep now. good night/morning!