Ok, so I have a lot of hangups. I am a bit more uptight than before. It’s kinda like I am my sort of “manang” self again. But not really. I realize all the more that I don’t have a high tolerance when it comes to certain kinds of people.  I don’t even really socialize with such people often but I still have a certain bias against them for one reason or another.

I am not sure if being exposed to them more often will help me get over it.  Or get me used to their presence.  I know I could just always ignore them but it’s not easy when I hear them speak or whatever it is they’re doing.

Oh and if you have tips on building tolerance, send them my way. I surely need them.

i hate shopping for clothes nowadays. i still haven’t found shops that i could buy from these days. why? promod’s sizing is now weird. i used to find their clothes ok. especially the basic tops. their big sizes are now smaller @_@ well, it depends. some are still like the old promod tops i have. anyway, yeah, so the trouble with shopping for plus size clothes in manila is that it’s hard to find something affordable and nice. i have been to forever 21 time and again but nothing struck me as something that to buy right away except for 1 dress that i wasn’t able to buy because i fitted it while waiting for my boyfriend to arrive in our designated meeting area.

so now my problem is formal wear. i have clothes that i have been wearing to weddings. i like the victorian inspired clothes, especially lolita inspired outfits because i somehow manage to look ok in them. and it feels comfortable to wear them. more often than not, those outfits have worked in the weddings i’ve attended.

however, i am invited to a wedding and it’s required to wear something formal. according to the boyfriend, cocktail dresses aren’t allowed. ~_~ wtf. and i have 2 weeks only.

argh. i have been looking for dress styles for the last couple of hours. it’s driving me nuts. something floor-length is something i’ve never worn since the 90s. i think everything i wore to the proms and grad ball were knee-length only.

i hate looking older especially because my boyfriend is two years younger than i am. unfortunately, i am clueless as to which kind of formal dress suits me best. all i know is that i don’t have a defined waist, i am booby, i have a naturally high waistline and that i am quite short. i usually look better in two piece outfits. i tried wearing my sister’s infinity dress but failed even with her assistance in coming up with a look that would be fine.

so yeah, i just really feel like skipping this wedding because it’s so complicated to be a guest on short notice. and rush shopping tends to be more expensive. i’d rather give them a nice gift or more GCs (since that’s what they requested in the bridal registry) than to spend money on preparing to attend their wedding. seriously. if it’s going to end up being so expensive to dress up for the occasion, i’d rather treat them to dinner or something after their big day, give them the gift and have some nice conversation in the process.

some people might think i am missing the point of the wedding day. that may be true. but it’s not like i am very close to these people that i am really going to be disappointed to not be there and it’s not like we will get to talk on the day itself. however, this wedding is important. especially to my boyfriend who is close to the groom. but seriously i’d rather get to know them more over dinner or something and know more about their plans as a couple over a nice conversation.

i guess i am just weird. and i do want to avoid formal events like this. it drives me nuts.

and i hate the question: so when would your wedding be?

not that i hate the thought of getting married. it’s more like i hate having to think about all the details that are involved in weddings. i am more concerned about having to pay for a house and possibly a car. and how to save up for future children. i think those are more important than finding a good venue to reserve etc.

anyway, i was ranting about shopping for formal clothes. so yeah. i just hope that any of my friend’s clothes would fit me. i want to really to not have spend so much on clothes. and a stylist. and other stuff. argh. ugh. it’s because i don’t always attend formal events. if i buy clothes for this one event, when in the world will i wear the clothes again?! it feels so wasteful. because i dunno if i could wear those clothes again. i still gain weight so there’s a chance that i might not be able to wear it again after some time. isn’t that sad?! so much money on clothes that you wear only once? terrible.

so yeah, i have to sleep now. good night/morning!

Here’s hoping that the work-week won’t be as hectic as the two previous ones. I am eyeing to give time to two games. Portal 2 and Dance Central. Portal 2 because I want to get over the dizziness I feel when I move around in the environment. And Dance Central because I want to try the workout mode. Soulja Boy is a song that fits workout mode pretty well. Even in easy mode, it could feel tiring. I wonder if three songs in a row will give a good workout? Start with Evacuate the Dancefloor, follow it with a more challenging Soulja Boy and end with an easy song like Funkytown.

It was Friday the 13th yesterday and typically people think it’s an unlucky day. Fortunately for me, it was a pretty good day. :) The surprises party turned out perfectly fine hahaha. It was SUPER EFFECTIVE! I really loved the expression on Enzo’s face when we surprised him. It was priceless. Martin, Vanessa and their barkada were pretty awesome at ensuring that the plan would happen. And there was food, glorious food all night XDDDD

It wasn’t enough. We went out for drinks and one of our interns and her sisters ended up performing two songs, on the spot. They were great! I wish the others were around to see them live. Ah well. Here’s hoping JP would upload the pictures and videos soon! That was one unplanned night outXD

The work week was hectic and ended pretty well. And this weekend I even tried playing Portal 2. Hahahaha. XDDd I am terrible at it as I feel barfy whenever I move around.